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"At its core, How To Exist, An Impractical Guide / Como Existir, Gu�a Impr�ctica is a book of poetry and love (amor). Penned by Lorena B. Fernandez, in its pages may be found love in multiple forms: compassionate love, erotic love, friendship love, but first and foremost a love of self. Not the self as a singular, but the self as a locus of sensation and movement from which relations emerge. But who is this self, then, that is Fernandez? Naturally, it is a multiple self that we are describing: poet, artist, woman, mother, daughter, student, expressive arts therapist, Latin American, to name but a few. It is in this last aspect -- as Latina -- that lies the unique appeal of the book. Poetry has a very unique relationship with language, quite unlike other forms of writing. The rhythm of each word in succession, the cadence of each syllable bouncing one after the other, the flow of the entire body in expressing the verses aloud. Linguists perhaps study it in terms of structure or form, but for the rest of us it stands as a pleasant dance to the patter of our eardrums. Because of this unique relationship with the language in which it was written, poetry creates particular challenges for translation.Fernandez confronts this challenge head-on by writing her own translations, each of the poems in the volume presented in both English and Spanish. So which language comes first? In relentlessly juxtaposing the two, page after page, it becomes apparent that there is no primacy of one before the other, no dominant identity to which the other falls subaltern. Rather a both/and that suggests the author as always-already passing between such fixed constructs as singular linguistic identity. In other words, Fernandez dances in two languages at the same time. When it is the same artist who creates, translates and illustrates, one is rendered in awe at the artist's multiple talents and subsequently left to trace waves of affect throughout the pages of the book in search of insight into the mind of this unique individual.If a dominant identity wants to make its presence felt, it is the feminism that infuses every page of the volume, proud without being pushy or pedantic. But even this feminism is multiple, creating tensions throughout the book that magnify those created by its formal structure. In "Disappointment of Received Approval" she chastises the "poor little lap dog of a girl" who waits meekly in the corner for her small bone of acknowledgment. This reaches a tipping point in "How Thoughts Are Like Snakes," as her mind becomes "a nest of snakes / boiling with anger / each one with her idea / each one stubborn." These stand in stark contrast to the verse "love is being born / exits innocently the uterus of our souls / surrounded by softness" from "How To Help Love To Be Born."How to exist, then, becomes a polyrhythmic call to the reader. The recurring theme of the book is the search for meaning in life, and here lies perhaps that most impractical aspect of the book: the quest. But Fern�ndez doesn't leave the reader alone or singular in this regard: in the introduction to the book she expressly encourages the reader to become a traveller herself, to transform the impractical into the practical through poetry and art. Not simply to be a traveller, actually, but rather a guide through words, colours and forms on one's own journey to meaning. The quest becomes a question: how to exist? There might not be a destination in sight, nor even one to be found, but the journey "in the eternal minute / of the present / awaiting" will have been worth every step taken if only the call is answered." Sean Smith, Ph.D.